I was cooking (yes I do cook. I escape, when I cook) and some thoughts crossed my mind. I'll elaborate:
When I was in high school, my courses were geared toward pre-med. As time went on, and I was a terrible student, things shifted direction. When high school ended, I ventured into the world and sought my destiny.
As my thoughts progressed today, I started wondering about my life, if I pursued medicine. Where would I be? Would I be successful? Would I be a derelict, living on the streets because I was a piss poor doctor? Would I have had the wonderful opportunity to help my mother during her final years? Who knows. That's the path I didn't take.
If I had sought a different path, I'd never been fascinated by watching a comet from the rail of an offshore platform. I'd never met my wife. I'd never learned to operate heavy equipment, or build a road, a bridge or acquired any of the skills I now possess.
So, what am I getting at? We are who we are, only because the path life presented. All decisions - right or wrong - have consequences, yet they also yield rewards.
Take some time to analyze your life, realize it's more than special and develop the determination you're only as successful as you feel. I feel wonderfully successful, don't regret my life and feel the journey is something I should accept, know is the correct path, and gave me memories I'll cherish forever. I'll continue with the determination to make the most of what it brings. It's the least I can do. I've been blessed and should always remember the blessings in life are simple and fulfilling.
In Case You've Wondered
My blog is where my wandering thoughts are interspersed with stuff I made up. So, if while reading you find yourself confused about the context, don't feel alone. I get confused, too.
If you're here for the stories, I started another blog: scratchingforchange.blogspot.com
One other thing: sometimes I write words you refuse to use in front of children, or polite company, unless you have a flat tire, or hit your thumb with a hammer.
I don't use them to offend; I use them to embellish.
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I have, over the years, made many good decisions. I have also made some pretty awful ones. I would love to be able to go back and change the bad parts of my life...the dumb things that I have done...the hurt brought to others through my own stupidity. But if I did that, I would have learned nothing and I wouldn't be the person I am today. I think I can live with that.
ReplyDeleteWe are who we are. Being comfortable with that is one of the hardest things to accomplish.
DeleteI've never made a decision I didn't live to regret. lol
ReplyDeleteand that's the TRUTH.
We all regret something, but I'll never regret my first visit to your web site.
DeleteYou're a jewel and the world is a better place with you in it.
If id finished college, I wouldn't have the hands on work I enjoy.
ReplyDeleteMy brother in law was in Annapolis.
He quit because as an officer he could never touch, only direct.
I do both, as I'm sure you do.
I get some flack for jumping in and doing things. Sometimes, it's easier to show someone than try to explain the procedure.
DeleteI was in pre-med in college, but got sidetracked by a lackadaisical attitude towards studying and partied instead. I really don't think I'd even like the guy I'd have had to become to be a successful doctor in the first place, because I'd never be able to just take time to enjoy things like I do now.
ReplyDeleteAnd you nailed it - we are who we are because of our good and bad experiences, and eliminating the bad would certainly change us in perhaps less positive ways.
We're tempered by fire.
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