Mindy McCready took her own life over the weekend. Call it the culmination of years of anguish and the final release of pain.
If you've never had a family member attempt, or succeed with suicide, you'll never understand the devastation that's involved. Beside the deep sadness, there's the guilt of thinking you could have done more and the constant nagging thoughts of how you failed them in their worst moments of need. These feelings never completely go away and the lifetime of changes are never good.
So, my sympathy for the family. I have no advice. You're not alone with what you're dealing with and I share your sorrow.