In Case You've Wondered

My blog is where my wandering thoughts are interspersed with stuff I made up. So, if while reading you find yourself confused about the context, don't feel alone. I get confused, too.

If you're here for the stories, I started another blog:

One other thing: sometimes I write words you refuse to use in front of children, or polite company, unless you have a flat tire, or hit your thumb with a hammer.

I don't use them to offend; I use them to embellish.

Friday, May 9, 2014

The Last Meal

It was a Saturday evening. I was with my mother, when her meal arrived.

We offered her the food; she wasn't hungry, but we managed to get her to eat a bite.

She made an attempt, but faded and didn't swallow. All our efforts failed, so I helped wipe the food from her mouth, so she wouldn't choke.

She eventually awoke long enough for us to get her to take a sip of Ensure. She soon fell asleep again, and I wondered how much longer she would last. She would hardly respond the next few days.

She passed Tuesday morning. I wasn't there, and wondered about her last moments. Did she have a moment of lucidity? Was she frightened? Did she know the end was near?

I'll never know. She was gone in a moment and I only know I wasn't there at the end.

The moments you have with your mother are finite. While the number of moments seems to be large, they may only be few. Take some time and tell her you love her.


  1. I can't think of anything more important than to tell those we care about how much we love them.

    1. Mothers sacrifice so much. Letting them know they're appreciated is a tiny effort to reward them for giving so much.

  2. My daughter and I were with my Mom when she left. A year ago yesterday. Still miss her like the dickens.

    1. It's like having a door slammed shut. Thousands of thoughts, things to be said and moments of visiting are removed forever.